Today, marked the day where i lose all of myself shattered into pieces while scream agonizingly in silence inside my own world where nobody can reach except the Almighty.

i lose her.

"we made a promise" she said.

by the time being, i was destroyed by the words.

slicing and stabbing slowly my hope, confidence, bravery, loyalty.

asked her, "what about me?"

she replied, "we never discuss about that"

i died.

after 3 years of waiting.

its actually waiting to be killed and died in horror.

she added on, "there's nothing to grieve about it, you should enjoy your life."

frankly, i died.

i died.